| I need to feel strong again |
[09 Jul 2011|01:07pm] |
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I would be lying to myself if I said I was getting better, but I am not. In all honesty I am still scared of my own shadow. Being taken as many times as I have the fear builds until you pretty much don't want to do anything else. I pretty much have been hiding away for the past few months and I know that is not like me, but there is nothing I can do really. I am just glad that summer is here because this year has been one hell of a year for me. I have missed a lot of classes so that is why I am taking summer classes so I can catch up. Lucky for me, my advisor has been supportive and been helping me with all of my classes and what not. So hopefully I will be able to complete this part of the year and start in on the next one. Mind you it will be a while before I graduate, but at least I am making headway.
Despite being afraid of my own shadow there is a light in my dark tunnel. My friends however many there are of you that attend KSU, I am grateful for your patience and friendship these past couple of months. To those who have been helping me these past couple of months, you know who you are. Thank you for that. Keep doing what you are doing to break through my dark tunnel and pull me back to where I belong and hopefully KSU will get its daydreamer back. Maybe I will feel okay by my birthday on August 10th. We'll see.
I guess that is all for me. I will write more soon.
Private to close friends and those who attended Hogwarts
I'm still frightened of my own shadow and afraid to leave my room. More needs to be done here. I don't want to be frightened of my own shadow anymore. I need to get out of my darkness, so help?
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Private to Lana
I know we have not seen each other in a while, but when are you free next? I'd really like to see you, and I miss you.
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Private to Professor Snape
I am surprised I am sending you a message, but I want to say thank you for everything you been doing to help me. I need it more than ever and I am glad there is someone who understands. I know I need to say more, and hopefully I can the next time we meet. So for now, I say thank you.
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Private to Delita
I miss you. And thank you for being my place of shelter. I am honored of all the people in the world, you have asked me to live with you. It's the best thing you could have ever done. So thank you, and I am truly blessed to have you.
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