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I need to feel strong again [July 09, 2011 @ 1:07pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | Classical music ] I would be lying to myself if I said I was getting better, but I am not. In all honesty I am still scared of my own shadow. Being taken as many times as I have the fear builds until you pretty much don't want to do anything else. I pretty much have been hiding away for the past few months and I know that is not like me, but there is nothing I can do really. I am just glad that summer is here because this year has been one hell of a year for me. I have missed a lot of classes so that is why I am taking summer classes so I can catch up. Lucky for me, my advisor has been supportive and been helping me with all of my classes and what not. So hopefully I will be able to complete this part of the year and start in on the next one. Mind you it will be a while before I graduate, but at least I am making headway. Despite being afraid of my own shadow there is a light in my dark tunnel. My friends however many there are of you that attend KSU, I am grateful for your patience and friendship these past couple of months. To those who have been helping me these past couple of months, you know who you are. Thank you for that. Keep doing what you are doing to break through my dark tunnel and pull me back to where I belong and hopefully KSU will get its daydreamer back. Maybe I will feel okay by my birthday on August 10th. We'll see. I guess that is all for me. I will write more soon. Private to close friends and those who attended Hogwarts I'm still frightened of my own shadow and afraid to leave my room. More needs to be done here. I don't want to be frightened of my own shadow anymore. I need to get out of my darkness, so help? end private Private to Lana I know we have not seen each other in a while, but when are you free next? I'd really like to see you, and I miss you. End private Private to Professor Snape I am surprised I am sending you a message, but I want to say thank you for everything you been doing to help me. I need it more than ever and I am glad there is someone who understands. I know I need to say more, and hopefully I can the next time we meet. So for now, I say thank you. </b>End private</b> Private to Delita I miss you. And thank you for being my place of shelter. I am honored of all the people in the world, you have asked me to live with you. It's the best thing you could have ever done. So thank you, and I am truly blessed to have you. End private Read (11) Comment

[January 24, 2011 @ 6:57pm] [ mood | creative ] ( Application time! ) Comment

Maybe this will be a good thing? [February 11, 2010 @ 4:13pm] [ music | "Head over Heels" Tears for Fears ] Well, I auditioned for the KSU musical. They are doing Grease and since I have seen it a million times already, I think I would make a really good Jan. She has that personality that is like mine. Spacey, daydreamer and kind of insane. If that is not me, then I don't know what is anymore. But I figured since I am a theater major, I might as well as get some plays and stuff under my belt. I mean, I am not the greatest singer in the world, but I am going to try and make the most of it. This month has been really good, and I am hoping that this is the sign that things are going to be okay fear wise. I am taking something to help me sleep at night so the nightmares are less and less. I find that I am becoming a more happier person and I am glad I am becomming that weay. Maybe this is the beginning of a new and improved me. Let's hope that continues. Valentines day is coming up, and I have no idea what I have planned. If I am doing something then I suppose I will be suprised. I am hoping Delita and I will do something, but you may never know... I am hoping to get a few things for my friends and I have to remind myself to send something to my dad. It's been a while since I have talked to him, or Shelly's family for that matter. I still need to tell them what happened.. If Shelly hasn't already. Speaking of Shelly, we need to hang out ASAP! Hopefully this Valentines Day will be better than last year. I have high hopes, so that is a good thing right? I think that is all for me. What else is everyone up to? ~Luna Read (5) Comment

Joining the bandwagon [January 21, 2010 @ 1:31am] You can ask me any question and I have to answer it truthfully, but in turn I get to ask you one right back. Some answers can be privatized, but that choice is up to you. Read (16) Comment

Just something that everyone else is doing... [December 02, 2009 @ 11:44pm] ( They never said there will be snow on Christmas ) Read (5) Comment

I am alive... [November 29, 2009 @ 1:35am] [ mood | loved ] [ music | "White Christmas" Martina McBride ] I am alive and I know I have neglected this journal, but it was due to the fact that I have been scared for my life since the whole stalker ordeal, but I am happy to say that I am getting better with each passing day. I know it has been a little over a year of that scary time, but I am glad that I am able to walk out of my dorm without as much fear as I had previously. Which is a good thing. Slow steps are being taken and that is how I am going to treat it. Maybe soon, things will be back to where they were before everything went down to hell. Thanksgiving was not a total drag. I just spent it with a few friends since i couldn't go back to England this year. Christmas is debateable since I have no idea what I am doing yet. If i don't go home(which i am hoping), I'll stay here and be with the friends I have. But I am suprised at how fast this year has gone. Seems just like yesterday the year started, and here we are almost into the holiday season. I like how some radio stations around here are playing Christmas music. It's really nice to fall asleep with it on. It's very calming and all that. I got to start Christmas shopping though. Not sure what to get everyone, but I will figure it out as time goes on. I will even decorate my dorm too. I have some holiday lights my dad left me, and tons more at home. Anyone want to help? Hope everyone is having a great weekend. ~Luna~ ( Private to self and BEST friends ) Read (11) Comment

Im fine.. [September 03, 2009 @ 3:54pm] I know it's been a while since I have updated, but I am not sure why I had the urge to update now of all days. Maybe it's because I am getting into the swing of things as I now start my second year of college. Hard to believe I been here a year and things have changed. But then again a lot has changed with my friends and I. Everything that we went through changed us physically, mentally and emotionally. I still have nightmares of what happened back then, but only Shelly would know that I have horrific dreams of back then. We are more like sisters because of that, and the fact we grew up together. I am not sure why I am thinking about the past. Maybe because what I have gone through over the past year was enough to make me go stir crazy. But I hope that this year will be a bit better than last year. But what I was not expecting was having a birthday party a month ago. Shelly's and my roomie Rikki planned the whole party without us knowing and was pretty sneaky if I do not say so myself. It was a pretty fun party and I got to chat with new people and my old friends. Though I do feel bad aboout treating Hannah's boyfriend the way I did, but I still have issues with talking to him though I do appologize, Hannah. A lot has changed since... well those who know us know the reason. Despite all that, I was happy that I had a party. Maybe Shelly and I will get one next year. Private to close friends i would say that I am fine, but I think those of you who know me really well will probably say that I still look like a deer caught in headlights. Since that whole stalker ordeal last year, my phone remains turned off unless I have to keep it on for a specific reason. I dont want to experience that again, but I am not banking my chances. I have been very cautious around most people and that is probably why I treated Draco the way i did. I am tired of being treated with disrespect, and while I would normally have laughed it off, the past year has done more than just change who I am. It's made me into a person who is scared all the time and I don't like it. My own father doesn't even know that I got caught by the stalker and is now walking around campus like someone is watching me, too afraid to do much of anything. My only question is: Will I be okay? I am not sure, but I hate being scared for my life and having occuring nightmares of that night pop in my head at random times and have a meltdown. I can only hope that time will make me better, but who knows really... End Private I... need to clear my head. I'll be somwhere on the quad. Let's hope I don't have another meltdown... Read (7) Comment

I am offically scared now... [August 21, 2008 @ 9:17pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | Classical music of Beethoven ] {Private to all close friends who know Luna plus Rose Tyler and Wade Welles} I know I have not written in a while but I have a good reason for not doing so, since I have been busy with classes and all that. I am sure everyone else has been too. I find myself so busy with classes that I don't have time to spend with my friends anymore. But a better update is comming soon, but I have something to say that I never thought I would say. I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. Shell you know more about my past than anyone, so you Ginny and Colin should see where I am headed with this. I got a weird phone call and normally I don't answer my phone unless it was someone I know. The number was not one I recgonized and me being me, I answered. I didn't hear anything on the other end other than someone breathing. At first, i thought I got disconnected, but I didn't. I asked if anyone was there, but the breathing got louder and to the point where I was really freaked, and I was walking to my dorm room. I called the person a deranged psycho and whoever it was hung up on me. I turned my phone off when I got to my dorm room and I have been there since. I am too scared of going outside cause I am afraid I will get taken or something. I dunno what to do. All I know is that I never been so scared in my life, and I hope I don't get another call, but something tells me that this isn't the last.... {End private Entry} I don't know what to say.... Comment

I haven't written in a while... [May 23, 2008 @ 12:00pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | "One Love" U2 ] I have not written in a while and since there is a blackout, and I am running on batter power, I thought I would write a bit while I have the time to. My suitemates and I made a party out of the blackout and so far Gabbi and Colin has shown up, I guess that is a good thing seeing blackouts sort of scare me. I never done well during thunderstorms or storms in general. Shell can vouche for that since she has known me nearly as long as Ginny and Colin. But it gives me the time to catch up on homework and what have you. Most of it is done, except for the assignment I have for The Doctor's class. It's okay though since I am good in history. We'll see how well I do, now won't we? I am adjusting more and more with each passing day. I think it is because of the fact I am seeing more and more familiar faces. First it was just me, Shell, and Ginny and Harry. Now Vicky, Fred and George have shown up as well as Draco and even Fleur. Who else will show up I wonder. But Spending time with Ginny and Shell has helped me greatly, as well as my roommates. They seem to understand what it is like being homesick and I am greatful for being easy with me in my pending homesickness. I don't miss my father as much as I used to, thinking now it is the time to be the captian of my destiny. I'm traveling where the wind takes me and I am finding theater is my calling. The classes for theater are amazing and I look forward to each class I have. I have learned much and it can only get better from here. The suprising news is the fact that I now have a boyfriend. Yes, you read that right and no I am not joking. I am still suprised that Colin would like someone like me. I have lived my life as an outsider, and to be in the spotlight by someone I have liked since my school days is kinda unearving really. I am not used to be treated as if I am the most beautiful girl in the world, but I admit it is quite nice to have someone who is so willing to take care of me and love me as I am. I never felt this way before and I can only hope it will grow in due time. All I know is that I love Colin and nothing can take that away from me, no matter how shy I am. He is amazing and I don't think he even realizes it. But all that matters is that I do and that is good enough for me. And I think that is all for me. Off to find Shell and anyone else. I will write more soon! ~*~Luna~*~ Read (5) Comment

Adjustments.... [May 02, 2008 @ 11:11pm] [ mood | melancholy ] A few weeks have gone by and I am slowly adjusting to everything around here. The good thing is that I am getting used to living in a place with so much technology. I mean, I never used a computer before, but I think I am doing pretty good for someone who seems to lack the technology gene. But I will get better as I move along in this world. Other things of America I have discovered are coffee shops known as Dunkin Donuts and Starbucks. I never been to one until now, and to be brutally honest, I think they are my new best friends other than Shell and Ginny and that is saying something right there. When you have early morning classes, I find that a Mocha Swirl Iced Latte does wonders to wake you up. Luckily Colin has not caught me on my hyper fix yet, and I hope he doesn't either. But I am adjusting to this new fangeld world of new discoveries. Maybe I'll like it once I stop missing England and my dad so much. On a good note, school is going well. For the first time in my life I am not known as Looney anymore, which I am glad of. It feels nice to hear people use my name instead of something else. I know I may come off as a little weird, but onceyou get to know me, you get used to the weirdness of me. Gin and Shell will speak from experience since they know me more than anyone else. But really, classes are going well. I am loving my theater classes. It feels awesome to be on a stage and pretend that I am someone else. Hopefully I will be able to get the confidence to actually audition for a play one of these days. English is going well too. My professor loved my paper on comparing to life here in America to life in England. I'll have to show you all that paper sometime. Anyway school is a new experience I am enjoying very well. Who knows what else I will discover... {Private to self, but Ginny and Shell can see Other than school, I am suprised that I have found someone tht truly cares for me than just a friend. To think that I was oblivious of the fact that I didn't know he loved me like that. And to to think that I felt the same way until a few days ago on the campus quad where lo and behold Colin was taking pictures of me, and said I am the only one who he would take pictures of. We talked and he said he liked me, and I like him too. I never felt so loved and so afraid before. I never felt this way before, and it scares me. I am afraid of being hurt, and I know it wouldn't happen, but it could. I keep thinking positive. It's not easy, but I am trying. He rendered me speachless by kissing me, and I kissed him back. I am not sure, but I think this qualifies us as boyfriend and girlfriend. If so, I will be happy. Hopefully we can figure that out at the party if he comes. Who knows. We'll just play it by ear. {End Private} Second week down, and I am still homesick... ~*~Luna~*~ Read (10) Comment

first entry [April 07, 2008 @ 11:49pm] Well, I figured since I hightailed it all the way to Kansas for college instead of someplace close to my hometown in England that I would get a journal. Maybe cause so my dad can keep an eye on me, I dunno. I think I miss him more than I thought I did, so I guess that counts for something. I dont want to admit to the fact that I miss my father since I wanted to get out on my own and go to school which I have, but being so far from England is a drastic change from the small town life of home. I have several months before I go home for Christmas and all that, so I think my dad can handle being without me for a while at least. I just hope he does not blow up anything while I am gone. There is still hope for him yet. But other than that, here i am at college for the first time in my life and so far everything is good. I have not met my roommate yet, so hopefully she will be someone I can get along with. And hopefully she will understand my... individuality and the fact that I am totally out there. I like that part of myself, and maybe my roomie will too. Since I am still going on about college I might as well say what I am going for. My major is theater with a minor in English Lit. I love English and Theater, so I might as well try and make some use out of it. I like my classes and they seem very interesting so far. I think in time I will like it here, and that is a good thing. First time experiences are going to be interesting here. We'll just see what happens. I guess I better end here and see what I can find around here. Come find me if you wish. Cant miss me. I am the short blonde with the unique style. But I'll write later. Cheers, ~*~Luna~*~ Read (23) Comment

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